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I have never left you.

I miss your smile and your laughs.

Life moves on.

All my love.


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I’ve already prayed and sent the angels to you. It’s 0438 and I had a dream. You were not specifically in it, but when I woke up I had to write to you.

I was on a detail protecting the president and there was a mole. I was on rounds, crawling because we couldn’t tell which way the fire was coming from and Two agents had taken a shot to the forehead, one was deceased the other holding on by a thread. I came back from a round and lay down on the ground in front of him and held his hands and prayed with him, he seemed to rouse and we were waiting but the ambulance couldn’t get through. There were several women with long (knee-length) hair walking out of the area (I cold see them from the back). one was blond with very long, curly hair and I suspected her but hadn’t seen her before in the unit and when I questioned her presence the detail leader just looked astounded and said “you don’t know who she is” implying that I wouldn’t question her if I did but no details were offered. She went into a small room and walked past a small group who were talking in whispers and there was a man who said “oy”, in a specific southern drawl which triggered the unit leader to look closer and immediately put him under security. He was the link to a group in a van who had made the shots. The man was mid height and slender, not quite 6′ and possibly 150 lbs, with dark hair, no glasses and holding a briefcase and a glass. He was linked to a group near a van in the corner of the parking lot facing us.

We were outside, 3 men were being tazered into submission. One man had two agents on him, a third was out of my line of vision and a man of your stature had the third. The situation seemed to be under control and then you answered your phone. He was waiting for that mistake and while your eyes were off of him turned and impaled a hunting blade in your groin, picked you up and threw you through a bus window and then the bus was rolling backward out of sight. Another agent tried to stop it but it was rolling downhill. You were still alive (the feeling of the moment) but critically injured. As I see to my right the bus rolling one way with you in it and all the glass broken out of the front window I look and the group had made their van and were also rolling out of sight the other direction. I woke up.

Do not take your focus off of the man on his knees in front of you. I have no idea why I had to write that but if it helps and you actual visit here ever then it was worth the effort.

All my love, my friend. I am here for you as always and cannot explain the connection I feel. If it will save your life or those around you, I had to speak out.
Blessings on your life.

btw – in this dream I was also an agent. My insight was on point and my hair was longer 🙂

Now, I’m gong to curl up next to my big orange purring cat and go back to sleep.

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I keep my word.  I will always be here for you.

Be well, my dear friend.

All My Love

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Yes. I think of you every day.
Have a Blessed Day.

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You know who you are.
Hope life is wonderful for you. Keeping the angels around you through your travels.

All My Love as always.

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Good morning. It’s quiet here. The cats are lazing about in their own little areas. Two in the windowsills, one laying in the sunshine another cleaning up breakfast after the others. The sounds of birds outside the window, the hoot of a pair of doves. One of the horses is blowing and snorting and occasionally the calves will bawl. I slept until 9am again today as I did yesterday. Both nights I took one of the rest easy pills so stay asleep. Peak is finally over so its back to a reasonable 45 hour schedule. I needed the sleep.

All I really had to say this morning is your on my mind – and my other soldiers also. I never heard from Darryl again after he came back and went to college. Seems to be the theme. When you’re in the field its a link to home to keep you in the game and when you are back to your life after there are other things that demand your time. Probably as it should be. As for me I think when these two soldiers come home I will stop supporting this way for a while. I may do the seasonal support, that is always fun. I have a heart for wounded warriors and may focus my efforts that direction. There is a great program that matches soldiers who have PTSD with a rescue canine. Dogs are great. Someone at work showed me a picture of a beautiful blue-eyed Husky/Lab mix puppy this week. I wanted to go get him but I’ve decided no dogs for me for a few years. I have the cats and equines to care for and I want to travel. Eric and Lily got a puppy on the road – adopted from a friend actually. Her name is Lola Monroe and she’s adjusting very well to living in the van with them. She has saved them from intruders a couple of times too. They have to come back in July for Eric to meet with his counselor for his medication, so I’ll get to meet her then. I have their cat Skylar, a beautiful Siamese with an incredible personality (the only reason I agreed to house him) and he’s integrated himself into the pack pretty well. He was raised with people so it’s taken him a couple of months to learn how to be a cat, read body language and know when to quit. There were some vociferous discussions and much hair lost a couple of weeks ago.  Here is a pic of him in his favorite spot.


I need to go shower and get ready for church, although its tempting to sit here all day again in the sunshine alone. Many times I just don’t feel like being around people. Here’s a photo of the window I sit by.


Well, my friend. Have a Blessed day.
All My Love

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Many warm thoughts of you today. This afternoon it was 79 and tonight its down to the 40s. It was chilly!!

Tomorrow I volunteer at church and get to snuggle with babies while their mommies have grown up time.

Eric is in Houston, TX with his fiance. They love it there but havn’t found jobs yet. They got a dog.
I have their cat with me for the time being.

I’m studying the Masterson method of horse massage and Petey was so relaxed last night I almost had him on the ground. Autumn is suspicious but very curious. Weekend after next I am volunteering at the Parelli clinic in Des Moines. A weekend of horses, trainers, cowboys and horses. Then 2 days off when I get home, I’m sure I’ll be playing with my 4 leggeds and spending time absorbing vitamin D.

Write to me some time. 🙂 same addy different house number 6657.
Have a blessed day.
All My Love

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